Apocalyptica

I love this song:) & this video! ...I love Escaflowne!!! & this is part of my soundtrack playlist:D

Mod Cloth :D

My Wish List!

I love this site...I think I'm going to order a coat for when I go to Chicago in the winter...and a few accessories too!:D

I still need to book a hotel room and a flight...as well as come up with a couple of things me and Brandon can do once my classes are done for the day. I want to enjoy myself a lil bit! I also need to buy some more work pants pretty soon. My one's I have now are wearing out a bit (I need to sew up the hem of one before it comes completely undone!

Stand

Another song from my soundtrack playlist. It seemed appropriate.

Feeling a bit better...

After going to the funeral, I feel both better and worse at the same time...if that makes any sense at all. The School counselor that was supposed to email me their interview today fell through. They totally said they'd do it, and well didn't. I went on Just ask .com and found a counselor on there to interview last minute. Hopefully, it will work:P I can only do so much.

Brandon is still offshore. I miss my snuggle bunny:P **has a sappy moment** ...I wanna cuddle...and Dexter the cat makes my nose itch when he tries to jump in my face throughout the night (if I let him snuggle in bed):P:P:P

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2 more projects down and one step closer to a Masters!!! :D My aunt tried quizzing me on if I'd consider going back to teaching right now...uh ... no! If I did that I would pretty much be insuring I wouldn't graduate until 2014 or 2015 with how few classes I'd be able to take. I'm thinking of taking 1 class at a time after that and continuing for the PsyD. The only thing is I want to make sure the PsyD would qualify me as a psychologist in Louisiana or if I'd have to get that degree from a different school. Oh well, I'll worry about that later.

Going to bed now, I'll try to wake up in time for meditation tomorrow.

Butterfly -- Amanda

bright little wings
vibrant
green
blue
gold
open and close
open --
-- and close

dance
air treads its way
over
under
around
your wings
open and close
open --
-- and close

alight on a flower
hues of red
pink
green
the sweet smell
last flight

-- and close


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Today a friend of mine passed away...she was only in her early twenties. One thing I will always remember about her, was the way she would randomly cut/dye her hair. She was always trying out anime like hair styles and edgy looks. She was always happy when I saw her. And, always cared most for those she loved & protected them fervently.
Here is the Link to Her Obit.

Indifference and Inflexibility

PHOENIX - A nun and administrator at a Catholic hospital in Phoenix has been reassigned and rebuked by the local bishop for agreeing that a severely ill woman needed an abortion to survive.

Sister Margaret McBride was on an ethics committee that included doctors that consulted with a young woman who was 11 weeks pregnant late last year, The Arizona Republic newspaper reported on its website Saturday. The woman was suffering from a life-threatening condition that likely would have caused her death if she hadn't had the abortion at St. Joseph's Hospital and Medical Center.

~ MSNBC

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All life is sacred, but if the nun had allowed the patient to die so to would the 11wk old infant. Furthermore the church bishop has mentioned excommunicating the nun/persons involved. Ok lets not throw stones...I'll forgive you for insulting my intelligence...but how about the church set an example of forgiveness and mercy toward the patient and the doctors that were placed in this extremely emotional and difficult situation. Whether they are right or wrong, people are not perfect and can only do the best they can with the circumstances they are given. I believe in many of the traditions of Catholicism although personally I understand that there are exceptions to the rulebook. If there weren't exceptions, Jesus would have preached that his followers follow the current pharisees and rabbis of his era rather than break away and challenge those teachings.

Challenge your faith. Nothing is so sacred that it can not be challenged. Is it a loving response? Or are you hurling stones? Personally, I feel the church is hurling boulders in this instance.

Stress, and stomach ...

I'm finally done with the second section in my big ethics project. I'm stressed between school and work. And a friend of mine is in ICU right now. A's not any better. Please keep her in your prayers. Last I heard, she looked slightly better; but the night before they thought she wouldn't make it through the night.

My stomach's been rejecting food the past day and a half. I thought it was just stress, but it may also be a combination of stress + weather changing + a mild bug...I feel icky. Went to work anyway today b/c I'm off on Mon/Tues. Didn't sell anything today & there was no traffic on the lot. Which, in a commission based field translates into more stress and ACK!

Dexter the cat is trying to climb on my lap & I have to get some rest be4 wk in the AM. I hope I feel better tomorrow.

Living Proof...

Song: Paramore - Fences
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Another song on my soundtrack o' life lol! :D

Aggravation...

Why does ppl have to be all pissy and assholeish when ur trying to be happy and sharing with them??? Why can't they take the spirit of the action instead of wanting perfection.

I'm sick of perfection.

All I want is goodwill.

Why is that so hard?

Concerns...stress...and future goals...

I've been stressing out a lot lately. I have a lot I want to accomplish and very little time to do it in... my brother is autistic, and B & I might one day have to help support him. My parents had me later in life and I will probably have to support them sooner rather than later. I have personal goals and things I would like to be able to do with my life...and b/w putting family into perspective...feel a bit lost in the shuffle.

Our lil 2b/2b home works for now. Hopefully we can pay it down enough over the next 5-6years to be able to rent it out. I know we want to keep it so bro can have his own space if necessary. We also want to buy a bigger place for us after I get done with school. B also may go back for his Bachelor's degree, and I still haven't ruled out a psyd.

Physically, stress makes me gain weight even without eating. So wing chun once a week is essential to maintaining physical health. Meditation has become so important to me. Prayer is good. I enjoy prayer. But, sitting quietly with God and listening. It can be so hard to sit still and listen between emotions/stress/life/work/etc.

I'd like to write a book...but time and laziness combine to sabotage my efforts. Once I graduate, I want to take my parents and bro on a vacay to celebrate...just haven't figured out the logistics of it yet, & I won't mention it until it's practical. Bro still needs to learn to drive in order to help with his independence. Hopefully B can start taking him driving this summer. To top it all off, the autism and a lack of social interaction ability on Bro's part means he doesn't understand that ppl are trying to help him and he treats our parents resentfully.

I also miss B. when he's offshore. It seems we never stop working and actually enjoy a lazy day together anymore. We need a weekend get away pretty soon...I think in a few months I may see about getting away to some place in Louisiana...just not N.O. again...we need to get away the 2 of us & not worry about anything but just chilling. I know I'm ranting. But I definitely needed a cathartic rant. Right now, I feel like I'm trying to do everything with lil back up & no "bones" being thrown my way. Right now I'd take a give me...Hell I don't wanna win the whatever-million dollar powerball...just a lil somethin-somethin :D LOL!

Thoughts while meditating...

I am everybody
I am nobody
Everybody is me
Nobody is me

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Yea Yoda popped into my head and I wanted to put it down...ahh the randomness. I went to compassion meditation, I'm always so excited to go and always feel so peaceful afterward.

On another note, I find it interesting the similarities between Buddhist and Christian teachings: Buddhism focuses on Faith, Hope, and Wisdom. Christianity - Faith, Hope, and Love.

~ L

Geekdom...

I have figured out how to use my Time Machine (1TB) wireless HD as an external and also how to network my Itunes account to pick up the Time Machine for all my music/movies etc...:):):) This will allow me a TON more storage :):):) JOY!!! now the only problem would come in if we ran out of storage on the 1TB??? hmmm...right now that's a long way off...but still...

I suppose if that happened I could get an expansion for the HD? or maybe redirect where all files are found in????

4 right now though...it means my measly lil computer with only 60GB of space just expanded to a TB and me and Brandon can BOTH sync to it...although I'm not messing with his compy without talking with him 1st! LOL!!!

***geekily accomplished!***
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For Those that want to do it:
1) set up time machine
2) Drag Itunes folder to time machine
3) set itunes preferences and change location of folder to the time machine
4) backup computer to time machine (to be safe)
5) delete all itunes music/files on main computer (Itunes should now be reading the time machine for the library info)
6) you may have some songs doubled due to the library and the time machine transfer...delete any duplicates and your good to go
7) if more than one computer in house wants access to these songs...reset their accounts to find the folder repeating above steps...
((may have to redelete duplicate songs))
8) once set up all downloads/music will read off the time machine and free up laptops/desktops:):):)